CAN I GET BACK WHAT TO WHERE I WAS??!!! *update on medical*
May 3, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBUXxpkDPHQ

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we are at another end of a week and I
swear my children better stop playing
with my stuff I only noticed it after I
get on cam and then I'm like really um
god I cannot believe this week has gone
by so fast like it has literally excuse
my kids they're with their father right
now it is daddy time at the moment but I
just this week blew by so fast I have
been busy trying to get cups finished
that have been ordered and get them I
did a huge shipment on Monday I have
another big shipment on Monday let me
show you two of the cups that I have
finished this one is for a lady named
Melissa and then it just on the back has
roses and it says Nana life is the best
life I love that one and then I did one
for pink fairy merch they can choose the
colors that they want so it just says
fancy across it and then she asked to
have her name put on it so yeah and then
I have another one well I have cat
lady's and then I have cat lady's that
is it's finished I already showed you
guys that one and then I have another
one started right now
so anyways yes I have been keeping very
busy with getting cups up and out of
here because they just need to get done
and I had a doctor's appointment this
morning I was like as I went to bed and
I was like I feel like there is
something that has to be done tomorrow
like I really feel like there is
something seriously that needs to be
done and lo and behold I go to check my
calendar and it says doctor appointment
9:15 in the morning I'm like oh my god
so yeah I had a doctor's appointment at
9:15 this morning it was just like a Med
recheck and make sure everything is
going good he did bump up my LASIK
Hill with my blood pressure pill my
blood pressure was a little elevated not
bad but it is a little elevated so he
felt that he would be best excuse me
be best to go ahead and just bump it up
a little bit I feel like I've been
retaining a lot of water I can fill it
in my face and also we don't know well
it's not that we I don't know if the
fluctuation of my weight is because of
the Mirena
so he clearly he doesn't know if it is
or if it isn't but you know it is what
it is I mean what you're gonna do it's
gonna come out here on the seventh so
not much I can do about it
I have noticed since having it though
that I have my my body I don't really
feel that I'm retaining water cuz like
my wedding ring and stuff it's fine
my ankles are not swollen at all I have
no like swelling in my legs or anything
I just fill it in my face I don't know
maybe I maybe it's just me but anyways
so he went ahead and bumped up the LASIK
pill and then everything else is staying
the same oh no he is going to instead of
having me wing off of the lexapro he's
actually gonna keep me on the lexapro
and on the wellbutrin so I'm gonna be on
both of those and so I'm really excited
for that because I really felt a big
difference with the lexapro and the
wellbutrin so and now I just need to get
my Bruce Brown picked up today which is
my anxiety pill because I definitely
have been feeling a little bit more on
the antsy side so for sure I need to
start that back up tonight what else I
think that was it it was a really good
appointment though I asked him about my
lungs because I've been feeling like my
lungs are a little bit heavy with my
back but he said that because of the
bump
of the like the fluctuation of weight
gaining it could be causing that a
little bit but I told them that you know
I'm ready to just bite the nail and get
back on board I'm not willing to go and
start backtracking which I haven't
backtracked in the way that I would say
that I'm eating poorly or that I'm
drinking soda again none of that but I
just I haven't been working out I
haven't been walking as much I have been
a little bit but not enough and I've
noticed like when I go into the store
and stuff my back is starting to hurt
again and like just standing and doing
like the dishes I feel winded a lot more
now and so I feel like I just kind of I
need to put a fire behind my butt and
get my butt back in gear because I'm not
okay with weight gain I just I'm not and
I haven't been focusing on the scale
because I've just been needing to focus
on everything else around me at the
moment which is my mental health and
this marina and all of that stuff that
just worrying about the scale number
just is almost too much for me to handle
but there I did buy a measure tape so I
am gonna take my measurements and write
all that down and I think that's that's
very important because sometimes when
you're not having scale loss you can
have measurement loss you know and so
between me and oli I'm gonna have him
help me do my measurements and then
start really working on my working now
and getting back on track with just
eating my mils like I should be because
I haven't been eating them lately as
well I've been going hours without
eating and then I'll eat a big mil and I
know that that's not I mean I again it's
not poor choices of what I'm eating it's
just how I'm eating it and so that
obviously plays a big big role in waking
I mean it really does we also have
starting the 6th or the 7th
we're not exactly for sure but Ramadan
starts and I've
I spoke about this a little bit in the
past but I haven't spoke much about it
but it's the month of ramadhan that will
be coming up and what that is is you
fast from sunup to sundown meaning when
the Sun comes up you cannot drink
anything you cannot if you smoke you
cannot smoke absolutely nothing can
enter your mouth no gum no nothing I
mean absolutely nothing you do not have
any relations with your spouse or your
partner spouse you don't have let's see
basically it's just us-- abstain from
everything from the time the Sun comes
up to the time the Sun Goes Down which
here the Sun comes up about 3:30 in the
morning it goes down about 8:30 at night
so from 3:30 in the morning till 8:30 at
night ish 9 o'clock at night we cannot
eat drink nothing nothing at all so last
year was my first year to be able to
successfully finish through a whole
month of fasting and I was so happy and
so proud of myself and that was my year
that last year was the year that I
decided to make my life change because I
could see that I made it through a
month's worth of you know withholding
and you know showing myself that food is
not everything this year it's gonna be a
little bit more challenging because I am
on a lot of medications this year but
I'm still going to give it my all and
I'm gonna try and do the best I can I
have a lot of things I need to figure
out schedule wise so that I'm making
sure I'm taking my pills him the right
timing and separated enough time between
the time I could take my first set of
pills - the last time I could take my
last set of pills so I'm just gonna
really try and play it and see how I do
but I am really excited to see how
that's going to work Jeremiah
he has been fasting since he was five by
his choice he wanted to do just like
Daddy at the time I wasn't fasting um
but he would only fast into like noon
until like you know 12 o'clock and then
we would let him eat or whatever I mean
we always let him eat but he would
choose to fast but last year was his
very first year that he took the plunge
and was like mom if you're gonna do it
I'm gonna do it and I'm gonna fast with
you the whole time from morning tonight
and that is him going it to school and
everything and I always we're always
telling him you know if you feel like
you are not feeling good or you feel
dizzy or you're really thirsty or so
that you stop and drink you know we
don't want you to not be taking care of
yourself but we also want you to learn
to honor this month because it's part of
our religion and so he has 100% been on
board since he was five years old so
last year it was it was very interesting
because I was like you know what if my
son can do it I can do it is it
challenging of course it is but it's so
worth it at the end of the day it is so
worth it when you sit and you eat your
meal with your family and you embrace
that time that you're just like oh my
god you've went all day without you know
eating or drinking or anything and that
during that time is when you you know
you pray and you you know you read the
Quran and it's just it's an amazing time
of the year that we can embrace so
anyways during that time I don't know
how you know I'm gonna do but you know
I'll let you guys know how it's all
going other than that we were just
having the kind of a chillax day we're
gonna go to Costco a little bit later go
get gas because our gas tank is on empty
and I need to stop and get my meds that
my doctor called in to refill other than
that that's that's it there isn't a
whole lot to it so I did want to do a
quick reading really quick Olli has a
customer coming so I kind of got to
speed it up because I gotta be out there
with the kids
okay we're on March 11th and it says the
task ahead of you is no man
for the strength inside of you the task
ahead of you is no match for the
strength inside of you Wow you know that
is that is true the task ahead of you is
no match for the strength inside of you
and that goes so well with what I just
talked about with Ramadan in the fasting
it is a very tasking thing it's hard
it's not easy but you know what it can't
be the strength that's inside me that
wants to do this and the strength that I
want to you know say you know to
continue to be on my journey of losing
weight and putting my health first those
things are not stronger on the outside
than they are going to be on the inside
and what I want so bad I will make
happen and so don't forget that your
strength is on the inside is much
stronger than you the task that is ahead
of you that you're going to be placed
for which would be for my sake me to
continue to lose my weight and work on
my journey of eating healthy and Ramadan
coming up where I'm gonna be fasting
those are two big things right there
that I have to remember and I think I'm
gonna write that one out and print it
out somewhere and that way we can all
read it in my house every day that you
know the task ahead of you the task that
you're facing is not consider the
strength that's inside of you that you
can make this and you will succeed in it
so anyways I am in a close because like
I said all he has a customer coming the
kiddies I need to be out there I need to
be out there with the babies because I
don't trust them so anyways I hope you
guys have amazing amazing rest of your
Friday and I definitely am going to have
a really good Friday and a wonderful
wonderful weekend if I can get this
video up and going for the cup that I
just started I will definitely place
that up this weekend if there's you know
if there's some of you guys that just
don't really want to watch it or to have
no interest in watching me do cups you
guys can just skip over it it's not
something that's it must be I was gonna
start a second channel but right now I
think that's just a little more than I
want to take on so I don't see why I
just don't add them to this channel and
just who wants to see him can see him
who doesn't doesn't have to
so anyways take care everybody and I
will see you guys real soon bye bye
